serendipitously, last week karin and asher and i had an easy ride down to asheville, nc with my parents as they were passing through town.
people, i've never felt so at home in all my life.
i've never been able to so clearly feel at home simultaneously in my body and my spirit. i've never before felt so easily understood and understandable. i was glowing. both of my parents and also aaron commented on how my voice has changed in talking about my experiences and about living there. i'm more at home in myself. and i think i'm staying.
aaron was up in philly with nancy at an r.e.m. concert (which he said was brilliant, by the way) and he called us after it was over and asked whether we wanted to meet him back in culpeper or we wanted for him to come down to asheville. we told him we were having amazing experiences and we wanted him to come get a feel for the place himself.
i felt clear that i was either called to live there, or i was there to experience myself and experience home in a way i never had before just to know that it was possible. if it was the latter then i would know what sort of feeling i wanted to create and manifest in wherever i was making home for myself. (i mean, i think i can live in "asheville" without moving there...)
karin, aaron, and i (and to some extent asher) hemmed and hawed about what next steps to take and have settled on spending more time in asheville to experiment and see what the place has for us and us for it. as my dad says, "experiment, see how it feels in everyday life".
so, that's the news folks. asheville is calling. and it's radiant and alluring.